Re-awakened

I know this isn’t the case for many of you, but for me growing up in the Church, I heard a lot about God’s love. For most of my life, I could say “Yes, I know God loves me, God accepts me, He thinks I’m beautiful, etc…” It’s always been a struggle for me to move that “head knowledge” down to my heart, to make it really sink in.

I think about how much it would hurt for me to tell a man that I love him, and for him to just say he knows and not let it sink in or say it off-handely back. Then I realized I’ve done that countless times to God. The past month or so I’ve been talking that through with God, and to my surprise this is what He said: “Martha, say you love me.” At first I didn’t quite get it, why God wanted so badly for me to tell Him, but I did, and as I kept doing so, I found myself getting a much bigger understanding of His love towards me! He wanted me to become awakened to His love, and the fact of the matter is, He has already put love in each of us for Him, but sometimes we need to express it back to Him.

I write this as something I am very currently learning, not something I feel like I’ve grasped at all. I’ve come to understand that I can’t blow off His love towards me or think I understand it, because it will affect all other loves. I can’t fully love the poor and the lost if I don’t understand God’s love towards me that rescued me while I was lost. I will never be able to believe, accept, and become awakened to my future husband’s love towards me if I don’t fully believe, accept and become awakened to God’s love towards me. I can’t marvel, bask, and be secure in my husband telling me I am beautiful and captivating to him if I don’t marvel, bask, and be secure at being beautiful to God. I can’t serve my friends and those close to me if I don’t see all the ways that God serves me. It is SUCH an easy thing to say “Yes, I know, let’s move on” when it comes to the seemingly common subject of God’s love, but I’m realizing how much that attitude holds me back.

For some of you, God’s intimate love is a very fresh, new, and exciting thing. For other women who have been walking with Him for awhile now, it can seem stale. I’ve come to learn for me the best way to re-awaken this concept is to start consistently start telling Him you love Him. I’ve found that telling Him every single day, expressing it like I would to a person that I love deeply why I love Him, what I love about Him, what loving Him does to my life, actually makes me have a greater re-awakening to His love towards me! So start telling Him you love Him….and see if He starts making your heart beat just a little faster!

Going green!
Martha

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